Phew. What a week. What a week indeed. So much seems to have changed, for the absolute better (*knocks on wood*), after what has felt like a long and dark tunnel of a year.
First and foremost: bf has a job. A good job. One he's looking forward to going to, contributing to, and being the best him he can be at. Now's the time for pulling all the stops and going for the dream! <3
Secondly: I've made the difficult decision to quit my job. I'll be telling my manager on Tuesday that I don't plan on staying for the long run. I've got a double feeling about this: on the one hand, things have happened/are happening that thoroughly disgust me. I am seeing the decline. I don't want to go through it again. And the situation makes it all the easier to decide to call it quits, now that bf's secured a long-term job.
On the other hand, I feel heartbroken to leave some of my colleagues behind. I've been through a similar situation two jobs ago, where I left my supersweet colleague in the clutches of an evil manager (and this is not an exaggeration). Here, I feel like I'm abandoning two people whom I've grown to care about in a dead-end situation. I'm the supportive kind of person, towards everyone (except people who crush others). With one other loyal colleague kicked out, with me deciding to abandon ship, who will remain to turn to? I do feel guilty for wanting to leave. I don't like to feel like I'm abandoning people to bad situations. But, this isn't enough to change my mind, as I feel I've done everything I was supposed to. I don't appreciate where everything's heading. I'm sorry, but I'm not a number.
And in the line of changing working situations, I've done a couple more things: stepping stones towards my true purposes in life.
For one, I've been promoted at ProjectComment on Deviantart to Official Commenter. What does this mean? For now, I'm not concretely sure XD however, what it means on a personal level is that I was recognized by the founder, after many exchanges of ideas that had resulted from a complaint at the base, that I'm the kind of person they're looking for: someone who cares about others, who wants to be helpful, and who is dedicated (at least, that's what I've gathered XD). I feel extremely honoured to have been given this opportunity to work with like-minded people; on a very personal level, the child I once was who was afraid of people and never felt like she belonged anywhere, feels accepted at last. Though that sounds very insulting towards my closest friends who have accepted me as well XD (and are loved, btw, should they read this <3 ). The difference here is that I'm accepted within a group - a group of like-minded people who strive to better the part of the world they've taken for themselves (as in, constructive feedback for artists who may otherwise never get any -like me!). I've felt very happy being part of the project, much as I've been late at times with my own comments... and being given the chance to be a part of the group had boosted my self-confidence. Reminding me that the person I am is, to the contrary of what it seems all potential employers save my current one have thought, a worthwhile addition. Yeah, I'm feeling really good about this <<
And two, I contributed to the DigitalPainting.school project. I need to learn how to draw digitally. This is the next stepping stone towards writing my story, as I'm in desperate need of visual aids, and I'm the only one in my brain. I do believe I'm capable of learning. And, this will be a platform of exchanges where all levels of artist are welcome. I'm thoroughly looking forward to it - and, considering the 446% financed project, many others are as well.
Taking everything into account, I come to the conclusion I need to find a service-oriented job. This is my personality: I like to help and to be helpful; I need the opportunity to think; I'm loyal when treated with respect; and, I'm not afraid to say this, I'm pretty mature for someone who enjoys laughter and joking around. I'm not going to lock myself in the box of how-things-are-done, but instead I'm going to play with my talents and see where this gets me. I've got a clear idea of what I want my next resumé to look like (and bf gave me the excellent idea of using Mindmaple to structure my thoughts <3 ). My personality is going to show through, for better or worse... because the only reason to work any other way is out of fear to be rejected. However, I strongly believe the right people will appreciate my unique take on things.
As I've said at the beginning of the year: I will not worry. I will not fear. And so, the only reason I'd have to stay at my current job is out of fear not to find another one... and we can't have that.
This all said, I don't think you came here to hear me ramble about life XD at least, not my life. So, without further ado, I give you April's theme.......
Devon
One pic. I have one pic of him. ;______;
Who is Devon?
A question with multiple answers, as Devon is many things to that many people: to some he will be the saviour in a time of need, to others an unwanted thorn to the side; and to yet others, the last thing they will ever see.
To the innocent and the people in need, he will appear as a kind man, a ragged traveler in need of new clothes and food. He will try his best to help as long as it is in his power to do so; reaching out a friendly hand, though never will he allow people to get too close to his heart. Devon has known loss; loss too painful, loss that changed his personality forgood. Though he appreciates helping others, giving them the time of day and even surprising insights for those who'd think him but a common wanderer, Devon hates for people to try and get too close to him. The reason for this is Selessannea: the daughter to a former Ansai of the Syrilae, and both women died in his arms.
But Selessannea he loved, passionately, desperately; unrequitedly. Devon would never forgive the man who'd cause her death, and never forgive himself for not being able to save her. This was about 500 years ago. As you may now guess, Devon is indeed not a common wanderer.
To the evil people in the world, Devon is a merciless killer - a Vampire. He met the Ansai Sorasiehn in the prime of his Vampirism, newly born to a mindless hunger, and it is by a strange twist of fate that she, as a defender of justice, did not strike him down. Thus began a lasting friendship and partnership, as together they'd strive to bring justice to a world corrupted by greed and malevolence. Sorasiehn one day died in his arms, struck down by poison. Devon took up her arms and returned to her home, the village amid the trees, where he'd bring Soraiehn's daughter Nefahtil the news of Soraiehn's demise... to discover Nefahtil gone. He stayed in the village nonetheless, present the day Nefahtil'd return with a child growing within her.
And Selessannea was a beautiful girl. A precious girl, with not a bad bone in her body. Devon was there to raise her, and as she grew so evolved his feelings for her. Her innocence, the beauty of her heart, of her mind, turned Devon's fatherly care into genuine love - a love Selessannea would not return, as she could not see him as anything other than a father figure. This was painful enough to hear; but no less painful would be the fact she'd fall for a man who would one day cause her death.
And, ultimately, the destruction of the Syrilae.
Devon and the novel
As you may be able to tell, that was a really shortened version of the long-winded tale that is Devon's life. I highlighted the important (and dear god creepy) facts. Hey, he's the one who forged his life <<
But these facts are also the reason he will be an important part in the novel, as the discloser of information, and even the rouser of strife. Devon is a kind man indeed, but he can be quite rude and stubborn in his beliefs; this having everything to do with Selessannea, with the man she chose as her lover, with the way she died. It broke something inside of him that can never be mended; certain point of views are harsh and unyielding, and they will create issues within what group will have formed by then. It will even be a point of dispute between him and Aneskia. I'm actually looking forward to seeing Aneskia evolve from a frightened child to a girl who will stand up for what she believes to be right, even if it is to happen against everyone's better judgment. Especially Devon's.
But I will also need him as a strong man. Vampires, in my world, are creatures that are on the whole very strong. There's no undead/sunlight/garlic/holy water issue here. Vampires look like regular people, are regular people, except they possess certain powers that they obtain during the transformation. In Devon's case, this is strength and a pretty good nocturnal sight. Vampires can survive on regular food, but they do need to drink blood to replenish their body's resources and ensure longevity (how long they do live I don't know, but it's a damn long time... like the Energizer bunny << ). There's a lot to be said for Vampirism, but these are the important parts.
And he'll be important for another reason entirely: he is a link between many people. With certain information unearthed, he will be the one to say 'kill', to be met by but one single 'no'.
Anything else?
Like always, feel free to ask ;)
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