Week 11 - Good riddance, 2015

I don't even know where to start.

Fact is: 2015 sucked. Majorly. Which I think I mentioned in my previous post XD seriously though, it's worthy of mentioning again. I hate 2015. Glad it's nearly over.

What I hate most about this year is that I've had to - or, rather, I just did - put nearly everything creative on hold. At some point during the summer, the workhours and stress became crushing and, with no vacation in sight until the next year, I kinda just gave up on 'life', and focussed on surviving. It's only been since last week, when my workhours were slightly cut, that I've started being able to breathe again. And, with a vacation coming up in four days, I'm feeling good. Not great, but good: still have three out of six workdays to plow through. Let it be said, writing has become a chore for me. Even this post is demanding more brainpower than what I have left. This makes me so, so sad.

As has happened before, I let my job take over my life. I worked too many hours (did not really have a choice (though I say you always do, but the choice is to not be a dick towards your colleagues)), invested myself enormously, and in the end I don't even know if I'll get a real contract this year. A part of me does wonder if I really want one anyway - the other part realizes it's being overworked and basically sick and tired of working in itself that's making me say that: let's see what a week off will do, first, to improve my outlook. For me, the important thing is that my outside job allows for time and energy to do my inside job. So far... I'm just disappointed with everything, especially myself (although myself would argue that she put all the energy she had, and more, into this year, and I should shut up and start being positive << )

So, positive. Let's be positive.

... yeah, no. The year has sucked. XD seriously though, the only positive I can take out of this year is that I have work, and vacation time, and awesome colleagues, and had a great X-mas at the parents'-in-law with my parents too, and New Year's Eve will be here at home with parents and closest friends and it will be awesome. And, I cross-stitched some. And that seems like so little, considering a year is 365 days long. I don't know. I just want 2015 to be over with. (oh, and, nearly forgetting the Within Temptation concert dear god how shameful e________e )

I don't know if it shows that I have a hard time writing. I really do. I'm so out of practice. And tired. But, whatcha gonna do.

Also, I'm doing a personal take on the suckage of 2015, but, world events have heavilly contributed to this year being an awful one.

With all this said, I did manage to finish the year with some artisticness.

Writing: still nothing. This will be a hard one to pick up again, as I've basically stopped caring.

Art: did a drawing for the group KamiFrenchCreation over on Deviantart, for Secret Santa ^^

Really happy with how it turned out, and my Santee liked it too :D what I'm disappointed about though is that I haven't gotten my gift yet. At this point, I don't even care anymore. I'd even rather get no gift, as the upset will make it hard to thank the Secret 'Santa'. Btw: I'm also upset for the other people who haven't gotten their gift yet, and those who made one that hasn't even been seen yet (one exception being that a person who owes art has been online, and not bothered to let the group know how late they'll be). Yeah yeah, joyful holidays and all that crap << XD

Other: time's been limited, so this is the final pic for 2015:

Challenge: Yeah no not this week.