31/03 - Gah!

Today's bad: it was a stressful day at work. Let's keep it at that.

Today's good: the day's over. My beer tasted great.

Note to Future Self: you did the right thing.

30/03 - Lies and light

Today's bad: I got angry. The righteous kind of angry. The affronted kind of angry. Not that I did anything about it (except venting, and again now), but I hate being reminded of certain things. I hate seeing a lack of evolution and, furthermore, I hate liars. I really, really hate liars. And pity them, as they hurt themselves just as much as those they lie to, and ultimately live a false life. But when they hurt good people though, I get angry. ... it's kind of nice to feel, right now. Almost thought I didn't remember how emotions work.

Oh, and, I think I got a couple of Jehovah's witnesses at my door today. I pretended not to be there. They went away, luckilly. << (although it would be an interesting experiment to let those people in and watch them react to a gothic-Dragonized environment and maybe talk to them about ghosts and suches and gods, had my skull-icecube-receptacle been full... I am mean. XD).

Today's good: lookit:

Hell yeah. New writing! Completely fresh and pretty :D I have a hard time getting into my character's emotions right now, but, they still manage to tell me if something's off or not. After this chapter, I can finally start re-writing the parts I'm actually interested in. YES. e.e

Note to Future Self: don't say you don't care about something when in fact you do; don't feel guilt when none is shown you. Snakes are beautiful, but some are deadly.

29/03 - Dear gods, Borderlands.

Today's bad: you know, we were going to do some major cleaning in the house, and that so totally didn't happen.

Today's good: Borderlands happened << finished our second play-through, started the Holodome, gods I still adore Athena.

Note to Future Self: you so knew cleaning wasn't gonna happen =.=

28/03 - Shoes! Scratch that: books!

Today's bad: we walked into a store. We were welcomed with a dry, smileless 'hello, welcome' that made me want to scream and run for the exit. Seriously. My hair stood on end. I felt more welcome in freaking Chicago O'hare than in that store, and that is saying something enormous (especially if you've ever been to O'hare as a foreigner). Wow. Just, wow.

Today's good: uh, we just discovered a book and cd we ordered that was supposed to arrive on April 4th was delivered several hours ago. Huh. Cool! Now to finish reading Long Earth, and put in some reading of my friend Paul's novel, and I can get on this one:

Note to Future Self: remind yourself the short story was good. This one will be even better.

27/03 - Cats and bruises

Today's bad: as my cat Rasta walked away, I noticed something was off with his flank. Upon closer inspection, turned out to be a gaping wound. One vet trip later and several staples richer, Rasta's fine, and will be getting antibiotics for two weeks. I'm just so relieved he's okay.

Today's good: it's more of a bad day today, due to the cat, and having trouble sleeping enough (which is terrible when I work the early shift!). But, three days off now. That's gonna do worlds of good.

Note to Future Self: if the cat has a bump, it's vet time.

26/03 - One more day til weekend off!

Today's bad: I dunno... being tired? XD

Today's good: hmm... I saw cat litter at a good price at work. Think we'll get it. XD

Note to Future Self: my god your brain is fried. It was a good day though. 3 coffees. XD

Late 25/03 - Better late than not

The day's bad: well, I spent several hours hauling bottles and suches, and by the time I got home at 8PM, I was totally beat. I briefly remembered I had to blog, but then I forgot. Today's another haul day, thankfully of smaller and lighter things (I hope!). My back's surprisingly feeling well.

The day's good: I wrote in the morning! Just before work, did some minor re-writing. I reached a part where I have to do some major re-writing, so, that'll have to wait until Friday (early shift), or later (three days off!). It just feels good to be going forward with this.

Also, I got a message on DA from an old friend whom I haven't heard from in about 15 years, whom I used to RP with along with a couple other people. He wanted to get back in touch with us... I thought it was super cool he actually still remembers me ^^ (not like I forgot him, either). It's surprising to realize how much some people mark you, for you to remember them even after so many years without a single word. I like. ^^

Note to Future Self: late is indeed better than not. It's a post a day after all, and you're adapting to your situation. Nothing wrong with that, as long as you don't start mixing up days' events.

24/03 - Gaming heaven

Today's bad: hmm... I guess the fact I broke a bag of Easter chocolate eggs as I tried to scan it in during groceries shopping. I caught 'em all. XD

Today's good: ... my dad got me Final Fantasy Type 0. I could've cried cuz YAY FINAL FANTASY TYPE 0 OMG. It plays differently than other FF's, takes some getting used to, but I already know the story's gonna get me hooked. I almost cried when the soldier and his chocobo died at the beginning, it was so touching... And oh yeah, Japanese dubbing!!! Colour me ecstatic :D

Also, I had a pretty cool dream. I dreamt my scooter turned into a black panther, and even a black doberman, and it was being all protective. When I say my scooter's my best bud, I'm apparently not kidding XD I really enjoyed that feeling of being protected by a faithful, strong beast.

Note to Future Self: clock's still ticking, writing needsa happen.

Late 23/03 - Well I'll be damned

The day's bad: well, obviously, I forgot to write about it. Likely has something to do with being tired (I worked the morning shift, from 6:30AM til 1:30PM), which is something I still have to get used to, but I also witnessed a theft basically from my register. By the time I'd noticed something was amiss, aside from the guy not answering me after he'd set the alarm off, he was gone. Later in the day the police came and I had to give my testimony. I've never been in such a situation. I could have cried from the emotions of it all. And my supervisor set me on other tasks after that, thankfully (have I already said I have great coworkers on all levels?)

Had a makeshift Irish coffee when I got home to subdue the stress. Of course I forgot to put in a new pad e.e

The day's good: some Heroes, some minor re-writing, some anime in the evening (Another is one hell of a creepy show!), and I fell asleep around 10PM without need for pills (which are natural, I don't approve of chemical meds for something like this). Today, I'm well rested. It's a great feeling.

Note to Future Self: proud of you that you're still not giving up despite having missed a second day. This is what they call determination. You need it to write your book. Bit of drawing would be nice too, try out Manga Studio 5's trial some more.

22/03 - Borderlands X3

Today's bad: 'tired' is my current leitmotiv. But it's the good kind of tired.

Today's good: bf and I started up Borderlands: the Pre-Sequel again X3 ohhhh the fun. Too bad our last mission glitched and we had to quit - although, since it's feeding time, perhaps that's not such a bad thing XD

Note to Future Self: need to continue writing Isaru's story. Need to not let go of writing urge.

21/03 - Tired

Today's bad: long day at work. It's the bad part of the month, which means I get extra tired. Was happy when it was time to close up shop x.x

Today's good: well, tomorrow's a day off... XD

Note to Future Self: I got nothin'.

20/03 - Feeling gold

Today's bad: that title was supposed to read 'feeling good'. I liked the typo.

Also, my neck's been stiff all day. Hopefully it's good by tomorrow, since I hafta work.

Today's good: did some writing!!! It's been forever. It's mainly small rewrites and additions, but it's something :D

Note to Future Self: good girl. Keep on writing.

19/03 - Acquiring flow

Today's bad: spent several hours placing items at wori. My left shoulder/neck area hurts.

Today's good: watching tv in bf's arms :)

Note to Future Self: Heroes 6 is still awesomeness incarnate.

18/03 - Gods I need sleep

Today's bad: I had to start work at 6:30 this morning. It's definitely something I'll have to get used to. The really bad thing is that something was very wrong with my balance: I fell three times with my scooter, right before the house; the third time bf had to come and help me get the machine back up. End result: two painful bruises. Miraculously, my scooter has nothing, but my key got twisted and is barely usable. Thankfully, I've got a spare.

Today's good: my workday is over. It's two in the afternoon. Heroes of Might and Magic ftw.

Note to Future Self: you're tired. Get some sleep. If need be, get meds, but we need to sleep.

17/03 - Official day off

Today's bad: woke up with a runny nose and a bit of a headache. I expect that's due to work yesterday, as I spent a good portion of the day next to fridges. Kinda cleared up as the day progressed.

Today's good: finally re-installed Heroes of Might and Magic 6 after over two years, with the hope the Nvidia bug is solved at last. Gods it's a fun game e.e

Note to Future Self: the need for writing is coming.

16/03 - Tired

Today's bad: it was a long day at work.

Today's good: it was a long day at work :D

Note to Future Self: you're tired, rest.

15/03 - Made in Asia!

Today's bad: I was hoping to find a cover for my newly received smartphone. I did not.

Today's good: omg Made in Asia was aweeeeeeeesome :D so glad we managed to go this year! Found a few beautiful frames, couple of bookmarks, and a plush for mother-in-law XD it was super. And very very crowded, but very very awesome. Too bad some things are way too expensive, like a huge Twilight Princess Zelda for 250, and this beauty for which we do not know the price (but it looks expensive):

Note to Future Self: good luck for tomorrow!

14/03 - Numbers

Today's bad: came home this morning from a short trip to France, and discovered this:

We somehow locked the younger cat in the living room, and he proved to us he indeed can't be trusted with it. Had to call up my parents, who came quickly with a new pot, as we were expected at bf's parents around that hour. Needless to say, we weren't on time.

Today's good: had a great day at the bingo today :D we even won a couple of useful things (wok pan and hedge shears), and his mom won us a gorgeous frame.

It even has a couple of LED lights at the candles ^^ we'll put it up above our bed, at last filling in the gap that's been bothering me for four years lol

Note to Future Self: nothing to note.

13/03 - Forgotten

Today's bad: I realized around midnight, as I was trying to sleep, that I'd forgotten to write my post. Fact is, I was absolutely broken yesterday, what with sleeping poorly and barely and having a test workday. I was spent. It's the culmination point of months of stress. I could have decided to stop doing the blog,since I missed a day, but instead I decide to acknowledge the failure, and get over it. The blog will continue.

Today's good: aside from the cat coming to drink from the bathwater as we both lay in the tub, my contract was made today, and I'm getting a higher contract to boot! I m totally looking forward go starting on Monday :D I'm getting a three month contract to begin, and all will depend on how well I keep working :)

Note to Future Self: I'm proud of you that you're determined to keep the blog going despite missing a day.

11/03 - Ugh

Today's bad: how difficult can it be to update a freaking game >.< I deleted Heroes of Might and Magic 6 a few years ago because I got a game-freezing bug that Ubisoft denied, for several months, even existed - to eventually have to tell all Nvidia cards are affected. Patches didn't work. Nobody there was even helpful (at least no one from Ubisoft itself!). But I adore that game, and having found an expansion I wanted for a ridiculous price, I decided to install it again. Of course I can't update the damn thing, and therefore I can't install the expansion because it requires the patch (seriously, game from 2013, the patches aren't included?!). Dear gods. Dear gods. And this is hoping that my second-hand awesome graphics card will work, since it's an Nvidia too. ... I seriously love that game. >.<

Today's good: finished Dragon Age 2 for the second time, now I'm done with it for now. That game still feels botched in so many respects, but well, can't go from 1 to 3 directly. Coming from the Bioware Studios though, I am very disappointed.

Note to Future Self: oh boy oh boy workday tomorrow, hope I get hiiiiiired :D

10/03 - Food galore

Today's bad: I have to think real hard, and I still can't think of anything o_o

Today's good: did some groceries with me dad, found some old games to get rid of, and super cool stuff I'd forgotten I had, like this:

(thank you, Google)

Got nine different ones of these babies, all happy memories X3 ahh, the good ol' days.

Note to Future Self: I have nothing. It's one of those weeks.

09/03 - Hilarity

Today's bad: got called up by a paper journal's administration with the question whether I'd received their offer by letter. Nope. And I'm not interested.

Today's good: the cat made me laugh XD

Note to Future Self: yeah. You're so not listening at the moment. But then, the prospect of having work at last is a nice feeling. Hang on to that.

08/03 - Exhiliration

Today's bad: I really need more sleep.

Today's good: had the parents-in-law over for coffee, spring's right around the corner, looking forward to Thursday, omg everything's great!

Note to Future Self: you need to remember to write these earlier in the day. Otherwise you get these short-posts ô.-

07/03 - News!

Today's bad: went to bed at 2.45 am, still had a hard time falling asleep. I blame financial stress.

Today's good: I'm tipsy! Which makes typing a bit hard XD but, had an excellent interview today, Thursday a subsequent test day, and if all goes well I have a job! At last! The kind I need with friendly coworkers and a human boss. Totally looking forward to it!

Note to Future Self: well, you haven't been creative, but today's one of those days. And you got some ironing done, which is good. Having a job will improve your world a lot.

06/03 - Shadows

Today's bad: almost forgot about my daily blog. Guess it had to happen eventually!

Today's good: have an interview tomorrow!

Note to Future Self: you disappointed yourself. No creativity happened today.

05/03 - Of kidneys and cats

Today's bad: as I applied for another job today (the third in one day, go me!), I met this girl whom I'd be replacing at one store, and god that poor girl. She has kidney failure, in the form of pus and blood and bacteria and she's in a lot of pain. She said she was on 8 meds just to go to work. She was completely bloated. And, she's going to the same hospital I went to, so I could tell her how good they are there. She'd also had a cyst previously that, from what I understand, had wrapped all across her lower back. ... my myoma seems so tiny in comparison.

Today's good: aside from applying to three jobs, and getting kitty cuddles, I feel better today than last week. It happens on occasion that negative emotions get the better of me and I get depressed (who doesn't?). Getting out of the house today and back on the metaphorical horse did me a lot of good. And, the good period of time for jobs is coming again, so that's good too. Tomorrow's a day for me.

Note to Future Self: hey, Tomorrow-Self: get writing. Or drawing. Anything creative, but god damn do it.

04/03 - Still Dragons

Today's bad: still haven't heard a thing from something like 5 or 6 places where I applied. When you don't hear anything within two à three days, chances are they're just not interested.

Today's good: I guess completing a game counts << I'd read Dragon Age 2 was far beneath the level of its predecessor, and it wasn't lied. The level design's poor at best (I hate doing the same levels over and over again), gameplay isn't always fun (the Arishok battle is ridiculous), and I'm not sure how I feel about the story's end. But, there were enough plots and twists to keep me satiated. Enough to start over with a mage, this time. So that's good :)

Note to Future Self: yeah like you'll listen. Go watch your movie.

03/03 - Dragons

Today's bad: bf bit my shoulder through my clothes. It hurt pretty bad o.-

Today's good: summed up with one glitchy screenshot; spot the error :)

Oh, and I made the list for some possible job. We'll see if this leads anywhere.

Note to Future Self: yeah, no. Nothing today.

02/03 - Burn, baby, burn!

Today's bad: a foot got burned by boiling water today.

Today's good: the foot was my boyfriend's. XD (and he's the one who made me write this, to boot)

In other news, found some old china amid old items once belonging to my grandmother or older (whom, let it be said, has been dead for like 20 years). I found Dragon teacups. DRAGON. TEACUPS. Which is so uber strange considering my affection for the lovely lizards << 't is a sign! A SIGN! ... ahem.

Note to Future Self: speaking of Dragons and creativity in general, where's that completed art of your characters? Hmm? HMMMMMM????

01/03 - Greenery

Today's bad: I don't really know. Though I am still a bit tired (and sneezing), I'm feeling pretty okay today. So... oh, yeah. My cat came home bloodied. Like he'd been in a fight and killed something. He's perfectly fine, though, so I don't know what to think... Hopefully he didn't murder another cat.

Today's good: we planted some vines along a blindingly white wall that's been greatly annoying me for a couple of years. The neighbours who built what I call the 'white box' kindly told us we could re-paint the damn white plastic boards they used. Well, I had another idea a few days ago, and now we'll have to see if it'll work out. I'd love a wall of green e.e

Note to Future Self: never question the eccentricities of computers. Just appreciate.